Day 17

Today, everything confirms what i have always ponder about. Who you are today is very much determined by genes and upbringing. You just can not help it. Did a Ego-gram (whatever you call that) today and it further confirms Pi's assertion:- that my sense of recognition is ridiculously high.

Heh~ That's a Deaf point of mine, meaning i have been told about it, but i choose to ignore. Come on... Living in denial is sometimes human ma... But nowadays i am more aware of the "danger" it could bring.

Everyone will have a PARENT, an ADULT and a CHILD in them, it is a matter of which is more domineering at any point in time. For me, the "Compliant Child" is the main character that "controls" me all the time. And the psychologist-lecturer has to point out (of all other characters!!) that Compliant Childs are the people who losses their voice, are more susceptible to and suffer from all sorts of mental inbalance/disorders, get diahorreas, suffer from identity crisis so on and so for. The Compliant Childs, including myself, in the class almost fainted @ her "rich" illustrations. Bleah !!!!

Which leads me to another point, that people of similar personalities flock together. Need i say more? Cos Sally, Wendy and Melissa are all Compliant Child too >.<""" Opposite attract does happen. But my observations tell me that i am right though. Human relationships react in a Southpole attracts Southpole pattern rather than the conventional North attract South theory. Hmmm... will try to read up a little on social psychology.

In fact, anything man... I have a shelf of books and a list of others more that i wanna read. I need to enrich myself. =)

Day 16

I must be getting on with age...
Been hearing so much more frequently about who and who passed away, who and who had an operation so on and so for. *Freaky* Now my own brother faces the possibility of having to go for an operation. =(
It happens too suddenly sometimes. Always brace yourself for it, especially financially.

I always believe in this, that you should be responsible for your health. Reason being, no matter what happens to you, your family/loved ones are the ones who's gonna stay by you and "suffer" along with you. If you truly love them, perhaps the simplest thing to do is to take good care of your health.

I know sometimes you can't control things like this, but there are other aspects that you certainly are able to control, like eating habits or eating philosophy, and your lifestyle. Which is why i'm always annoyed with my dad's philosophy. "Life's short, just enjoy la, worry so much for what?". True it is, to a certain extent. But if you look at it in a broader picture, i don't think that's sound @ all. Some lines in Hou Yuan Jia goes something like this "Life is never just all about(for) yourself"

**Now i have more reasons to persevere.

Have no idea why the class started on this tarot card reading topic today and it lead on further into spiritual stuff discussions .. Haha.. The tarot card reading sounds interesting. Will be trying this weekend. Will see if she's really as good as others had said =P

Day 15 - Etiquette Class

Ya, a picture paints a thousand words.
Etiquette class today was fun but strenuous as it was the first time we had to carry that tray holding 18 full cups for WBJ service, while watching our posture and language used in full uniform. WTH. It is really NOT easy, worse than any of my waitressing experience donkey years ago. And guess what? Soon after, i got serious backaches, arm muscle aches and am running a slight fever now. *Sianz* Been getting sick more easily these days... It didn't help that the food in the canteen sucks too. Not much selection and unhealthy.... Urh.... OLD liao....

First half of the day was enjoyable as we learn how to "catwalk", bow, sit etc.... And @ the mock ups it was full of crap and laughter cos we went tekan-ing the guys while we pretend to be Pax and they serve us the drinks.
Girl: "Can i have Ni (meaning milk in Hokkien) pls"
Guy: *Stunned, Hand flew up to their "breast"* "Huh? Orh.... wait ah, i go behind squeeze"

Laugh until pengz.
And other non - existent drinks like Teh-Si Ice, Dinosaur, "Yun Yong" blar blar blar... =P

Had a little chat with Mr ex-goatee, Donald, on the mock up about the life of a couple of his close friends who are cabin crews. Didn't sound nice at all, or maybe 80 % of it. There's really a price to pay for everything. Glamorous? Nah, i still hold my stand. But i will take pride in what i do. They are 2 completely different issues. Managing internal colleagues was agreed to be the hardest game to play, for the survival in this industry. Though that's really not my cup of tea, but i am still trying my best to learn. *Bless me* I just hope i am not going to be one of those Counting-down-to-22months type.

Day 14 - Drink Drink Drink!!!

The rainy morning horribly worsen the Monday blues. Almost dozed off in Beverage theory class in the first half of the day. Met future pilot Diwen during break time and it's nice to have someone whom i can seek some advice from, as his gf is much more senior than me.

In semi-slumber mood until the practicals began, and that's when the fun begin =)
Champagne, port, Red, white, cocktails and blar blar...
Almost hurt my shoulder blade when i took my turn to open the wine bottle. One of the so many reasons why we (or maybe only me) cannot do without stewards. Otherwise jia lat. Better do some weights heh~


All of us went on a posing spree.. =P
We just love the "V" sign, but do you know that it's actually the same as _l_ in Old England? haha...



Cheers ! Cos the booze are free !!! =P


ORGASM !!! Super nice concoction. Mixture of Tia Maria & Baileys. Yum Yum! All of us are already looking forward to it again @ velvet, perhaps?


Result @ the end of the day? A very red face. Came to work "SEH", went home still "SEH", from all the booze =p Haha...

Day 13 - Comm Class

Feeling low.
And i'm absolutely sure it's not PMS.

There's more than meets the eye. Retreating back into my hermit shell. I can't care more. Whatever. $$$ is the best consolation out of all these.

Batch 864 and 865 came in this week and next week there will be another new batch coming in. Looks like they are really in need of people. 4 new batches in March alone. Today's lindy first day and coincidentally, she's in the same batch as Wei Shi, my secondary schoolmate. Think i'm expecting to meet more people i know in SIA.

Day 12 - Comm Class

Yeah, We are Batch 863.
It is really a significant number as we started our course on the 8th of March in year 2006. However, it brought us neither 4D nor TOTO luck. =/ Ya, I'm a typical Singaporean who believes in "No bet = no luck". I wonder what will i do if i am to strike TOTO. Heh ~ Dream on....

Thanks to Mr Green, we have been enjoying ourselves a lot in class these few days. Learnt lots about communication through games and role-plays from him, especially when dealing with an "Ang Moh". But i am definitely far from being good at it. It'll comes with experience ....

The 3 Musketeers of the class. Centre of attention. Incredulous jokers when the power of 3 combine.


Class gel-ing better these days as we even make plans for KTV and Velvet, though wendy and i still couldn't forget the initial disappointment we experienced with some people in the early days of our course. It could be misunderstanding, but should just be cautious. Am opening up to enjoy the days while it last cos there's always only 1 first time.

Came home to home-cooked food today. I was surprised yet touched at that gesture cos mum did not indicate that she'll be cooking dinner before she went out. Though it is just a simple meal, it taste absolutely wonderful. It's all the little effort that went into those meals. If i am no longer around, will someone tell my mum for me that i really (* a million times) appreciated her and her cooking ? =)

Day 11 - Comm Class

Yeah, finally can post the pictures... Dunno what's wrong with Blogger on Monday.

Class getting more fun without our official instructor. Opps =P

After attending Batch 854's graduation yesterday, it gave us more ideas of what to prepare for our own graduation. That explains why more people are bringing digital camera to class, to capture more candid shots. We need more people like "RA" Kelvin, "Sha-da-jie" Cherlyn and joker David. Put the 3 of them together, you get a whole afternoon of laughing gas in your stomach. It's been almost 3 weeks and ice's only starting to break. I'm beginning to enjoy the class more, minus the apprehension. Starting to unwind =)

Started our communications class today and we have this british man to teach and correct our singaporean english. Felt so pai seh about our "localized" english. Sometimes you just cannot help it, as much as i strive to practise good english, i find it difficult because your environment proves to be a greater influence over your determination. But! Never say die... Shall try harder.

Hehehe here's some of the fun we had last Friday in the skincare class. The guys just started snapping away when they got really bored while waiting.

Wendy, Sally and moi. Urh.... Ugly hair... Yucks... Am really considering Marilyn's suggestion: To cut short and blow the China doll look. Alrite, pls don't imagine.

The rest of the girls in the class, excluding the camera-shy Melissa.


During the "Hands-on". Notice we were trying to remove our eye makeup?

A candid camera shot.

Day 8

Today's pretty enjoyable with the skincare "practicals" by Marilyn, one of those who decide our fate during Kebaya. A very fun and approachable lady as opposed to the fierce and unfeeling interviewer who maintained such stern countenance that freak all of us out. It's the big day today cos she has to evaluate our hair and makeup, which explains why the past few days we're all so drained out trying to get our hair colour right, nails trimmed and painted and the make up right. Sounds so bimbo LOL...
After everyone had been evaluated, she made all of us remove our make up step by step despite all the girls' whining about the wee morning hrs effort. However, the practical turned out to be really fun and enlightening as it helped us understood our skin type better and the proper procedures through the skin care, esp important for us in this line. Guys are included too haha.


The 8 guys in our class. Think they were waiting for their turn for evaluation.

Day 7

Very tired, not enough sleep everyday. Was telling/complaining to everyone like how are we girls going to study when we are supposed to behave like "bimbos", getting up in the wee hrs and taking 1 hr to makeup to get to school, worry about falling strands of hair, always having to touch up makeup and stressed about the grooming every single day???? Duh... Sorry if i complain too much, haha i am starting to sound like someone already =P Gonna make it a quick entry.

Had an interesting class with a CS today. His experiences are really valuable references, but some of the facts did freak me out a little. Again, it makes me wonder if i this is really what i want and will i be able to survive the 2 yrs. Guess my greatest fear will be whether i can adapt to the completely different culture and lifestyle... >.<"

Was surprised that Sally and Wendy felt the same way as me, cos to be diplomatically correct i didnt think they'll voice it out too. Everything seems completely different from what we perceived as b4 we joined as FSS. Like how Wendy's FA friend put it b4 Wendy is part of the FA family,"You won't understand until you are in it". Although we are only 7 days old, all of us can't help but to agree with that now. Yes i know that i should be thankful to be that privileged group of people to have gotten in. But there are certainly other aspects that we have to come to terms with. No pain, no gain. 1 of them will be the expectation to live up to this perfect embodiment of grace, wellfullness and beauty the company build out of the SGirl. This is our responsibility and the type of invisible pressure you will ALWAYS shoulder. *stressed* Honestly, money seems to be all our sole motivation to persevere in this job now.

Quoting someone else: "There is nothing glamorous about this job" Let's all be realistic, and it sure is. But, i will still try to find this thing call "Passion". Only with passion, will it make the journey ever so meaningful. Do it not just for the pax, but also more for myself =)

Bed time.

Day 6 - Wayang Day

Black Hair Days again.

Very tired, cos woke up @ 6 am to prepare hair and face. In total took a time of 1 hr to get that "wayang" face right. Got "Orh Bar Cart" liao @.@ Travelling on the MRT train was unanimously agreed to be embarassing cos people gawks at us thinking we may be another Taiwanese "RU HUA" wanna be. Duh.....
Just did my hair jet black. Haiz...... The total damage to my pocket ever since grooming class started is approaching a sky high 400 bucks!!!!!!!!!! *gulp*

Yesterday was grooming class and manz it was no joke. As i was sitting through the demostration, i was, once again, caught asking myself am i in the right industry??? A couple other girls was feeling the same way too haha.. Really wonder why the heck we put ourselves through all these "pain"........ Been a complete make-up idiot all my life and in 1 hour time we're all expected to transform ourselves into the SG girl look and to maintain it from the next day onwards. Almost Pengz. I got the cool family colour and i am pretty happy about it, Heh~

Made a mad rush to bugis after work to buy all the Hair, Nail and Face necessities. I was kinda freaking out by then cos it's just too much things all in one day and to me, it was chaotic. Chiong home for family dinner after that. My family all got a shock. Ma said i'll look like "Yao Jin" Hahaha *Faintz*. Pi was still stunned despite warning him twice haha. And he said i look like RuHua with the chilli red lipstick!!!! F5!!!!!!!!!!!!

Day 4

I really wonder, how did we make it through our secondary school days with class sizes of almost 40???? When a class of 20 now seems stifling already ? I used to like making friends, i mean platonic friends, with the guys cos it feels less intimidating and they open up easier than fellow females? You know cos they're more chin chai and easy going? But today, some of the guys in my class proves to be a disappointment. It is only 4th day in the class and we are starting to see ugly side of people and to our surprise, it came from the guys !?!?! Zzzzzzz.....

You know in a group, there's always gonna be some outstanding ones as well as the popular ones? It's just a matter of time people just start sucking up to them? It's like the bees and honey thing? It just so happens that in my context some guys were the bees and mind you they did not try to conceal their dislike or preferences for other people who arent in the "honey" catergory. It's so funny watching all this sucking up from the sidelines, not to mention feeling disgusted at the same time. The comments some guys passed today was soooooooooooo blardy INSENSITIVE and ungentlemanly. Utter disappointment. Well, guessed i'm too naive. The men in the airline industry bitches too.

*Defence wall under construction*

*Yawnz*
Yesterday was another long saturday again. Imgaine i was out since 8am in the morning til 10pm... *Faintz* But i accomplished pretty much stuff =) Renew passport early in the morning, went for uniform fitting, ate, shopped, ate again, shopped, visited IT show 2006, shopped again, eat yet again and watched Underworld: Evolution.

The IT show was a hit, so crowded that it was kind of fruitless for those "window shopping" (like myself) Ya couldn't afford to get one now. Haiz... cos training's costing a bomb, so many things to spend on >.<" Grooming's coming on tuesday which we all anticipate about 200 bucks damage. Not to mention a whole lot of other things on the buying list ... =(

Yeah! signed up for a e-saver account with Standard Charter yday. It wasn't really on my "important" list, but i know i will need it in future. Pi said it's gd and he has been looking out for it. On top of everything else, we don't have to pay a cent to get the accounts! Hohohoho... It's great having a financial pro with me, he teaches me what to look out for and mans my portfolio.

Okie, time to hit the books. Darn, i did not wake up to jog today.

第一天

Yup, just finished America's Next Top Model, Jayla's eliminated.

Today's my first day in STC. And what a day to start, 8th of March, International Women's day Hahaha....
Was really excited in the morning as i head towards STC, but goggy @ the same time cos the night before i did not get much rest. Aiya, as if i got any rest at all before i start @ STC. Received a few well wishes from old colleagues in the morning. So sweet of them =) Esp the sms Pica (PS) sent me. ='''( If we were to swap places, i'll feel lost too.... which makes me a little sad actually... Haven really 收拾好心情, and there i have to proceed to my next stage in life? Anyway, Thank you Prof Lim, Mozzie, Pica and Lui once again for everything. *Hugs*

First day is kinda boring? Mission statement, core values, history blar blar blar.... Ms Woo is nice. Really don't get it. The work load today was light, in fact, neligible, but yet all of us were like shag out after class? *????*

"Shag" out i may be but was determined to catch "Brokeback Mountain" before i miss the chance? Intrigued by all the hoos-haas about this movie for the Academy Awards, rushed to Marina Sq, wolfed down my first Carl's Jr quickly (another 1st =p) b4 sitting down to a Huh?-can-someone-explain-what-is-going-on Brokeback mountain. I think i shd know better than to watch something so eh... what's the right word? Chim? thought-provoking ? whatever... show when my computer is in stand-by mode, ya stand-by for sleep hah~ I'm confused. bleh... *Am worried bout my Pi* =P

Last day in SIF

Am blogging from office now Hehe... It's finally here! My last day in SIF!!!

Although the sleep did improved my state of depression but i'm still tired. Cos of what happened yesterday. still feeling a tiny tinge of mixed emotions: sad, traumatised, disappointed, sianz, blar blar blar....

Life is hard. PS made an interesting comment yesterday while bag surfing.
"There are too many strings attached when buying an LV.
Bosses think they are paying you too much.
Mum thinks you are not giving her enough allowance.
BFs/Husbands think you are materialistic.
Friends wonder if that bag you are carrying is real anot." So true... Haha...
And i came to wonder this morning too: Why are there so many strings attached to being an FA? Heck, i'm just going to live my life.

Will update again... See how my last day goes here.... Pray hard they are not going to make me pay back *clasp hands together*
Otherwise i'll be further away from this:
Canon New Digital IXUS 800 IS


Been considering Sony's DSC T series too. Love the sleekness! But too bad more than 2 people have advised me against Sony... I need more opinions pls!

Reaching breaking point

Honestly, i never knew i was, in fact, breaking down until i took it out on Pi... *Feeling Bad*

I know majority of you meant well, trying to warn me all the impending dangers. But when you have been subjected to not just 1, or 2, but mutiple indirect criticisms, stereotyping, cautioning and nagging, your faith starts to waver and it really gets into you... I am trying not to be the "TYPE" of person that your despise, i'm trying to attain the "Balance" your have been talking about and i am trying to "BE" myself. I do not deny that there are many kind advices, but too much = too much...
I have yet to set foot in and so many things are already haunting me... Maybe i am just trying too hard?
I need a break.

Sorry dear, i see that you're trying to help me and at the same time, cope with the same incoming criticisms, stereotyping and challenges. I know you are being questioned, so am i. If you are gonna question me too, it's just too much. I need you on my side.

So Misunderstood. So Jaded.

Great day out with Yun

=) because:-
It's been ages since i've spent the day and shopped with yun... Thank you girl, i enjoyed your company lots today. Cheers! To our Friendship ^^

=( because:-
Roughly 200 bucks flew out of my pocket today! >.<" But yet i am still very happy with my buys heh~ Retail therapy's simply fantastic Hah! I'm used to buying things/clothes one at a time so that i don't really feel the pinch... But today is really OUCH! I seriously made an effort not to browse the racks as being Saturday, most of the reatil outlets are super packed... Zara @ Ngee Ann was pretty bad... It was kinda chaotic with clothes thrown all over the place, it felt like a Pasar Malam... But still, i can't help it when i spotted clothes that caught my eye. =9 Kinda start to like Forever 21, not all of the clothes though, the store is soooo blardy untidy and packed! i find it pretty unglam for a brand like this to be oriented this way.. *shrugs*

Checked out Birkenstock @ Wheelock place too... Found some designs that i like and made a mental note to check them out whenever i get the chance to go Deutschland, cos the prices here in Singapore are a staggering 100+ per pair! *faintz*
Darn tired... Old already haha...

Yesterday, went STC to sign my bond with dear... =) Followed by a last minute decision to head to somerset to tailor my uniform... Was really excited at first, until the seamtress tugged away at every inch of spare cloth, resulting in constricted breathing. Manz.. i was thinking to myself "Let's hope the first thing i am going to hate about this job is not gonna be the uniform!" Hah... Shared the encounter with Jerrica later and agreed that we were both trying so very hard to exhale during the entire process!! Now, i can sympathise with the Victorian ladies who had to live with corsets. It was really not a very good experience...

For now, i have to think of a way to make sure i exercise diligently to prevent my uniforms from busrting =P

Hmmm.... Heart still aching.

*3 more days*