Band of Brothers

I always thought that i have this man trapped in my body. Cos i used to aspire to be a fighter jet pilot and i love war shows. Otherwise i must be a sadist =P

Thankfully for this long weekend otherwise i may not have the chance to watch Band of Brothers in a short span of 1 or 2 days. Though the effect wasn't as traumatizing when i first watched it 2 years ago, it still tugged many cords in my heart.

I like the story. It wasn't "bang bang" or bombing all the time. They featured a couple of the characters in depth. The Officer - Lt Winters who's good @ tactics & leading, the mind & soul of Eazy Company; the pacifist - Blithe; the Medic - Eugene (he seems to be using Tourniquet every episode!) and the outstanding first Sergeant - Lip. The most heart wrenching part for me? When they discover the prisoner concentration camp.

The whole 10 episodes were full of irony, twist and turns. It gave a pretty realistic picture. 1 minute you were talking to the person, the next, he got blasted in his head right in front of you. I asked myself, how does one pick himself up and continue fighting as though it didn't happen?

How helpless will one feel? If the best friend you have come to know and rely on for the past few years, got shot in his neck and there's nothing you can do, with bullets flying all over your head but to see him die?

How numb will you get? When all you see everyday are dead bodies, bloody open wounds, lots of people you've got to save and to have perhaps half of them dying on you?

How depressing will it be? To see debris everywhere and dead bodies all stacked together, and maybe some familiar faces were among the stack?

Will one be able to think rationally and fight in the midst of the battlefield raining with bullets?

How detach can you be? When you breathe, see and live around death all the time?

How will one feel? To walk out of the war with a mangled part of your body?


In war, you never know what to expect.

Lt Winters said something like "Even if you have not been hit, somehow you will still emerge from the war with scars one way or another, which is why the men of Eazy Company have this special bond." =)
Personally, i thought with what they had gone through, with those "scars", it could actually make them feel like a complete person. Depending on how you see it.

But that was world war 2 - more than 50 years ago, if there's gonna be a world war 3, I doubt many will get to see tomorrow. Heard rumors from the guys who have been through army, as well as acquaintances that the warfare today is inhumane. Biological warfare is for one. If there's going to be a war, it better be for a good clause, though i also believe violence is not the way out. Quoting 1 of the lines in the show when they found out Hitler committed suicide, "He should have kill himself 3 years ago!!! (b4 he even started the stoopid war)"

I'm slipping into a slight "depression", just like 2 years ago and just like Pi who watched it last week. Not really a depression, but to feel the show and to think.

Wasted Long Weekend

Stuck @ home on this rare long weekend =(

Why? cos i ganna conjunctiva infection.

Woke up with a swollen right eye on Saturday morning. It went tearing non-stop. I freaked out man... Thinking it's cornea infection, i brushed my teeth, changed and dashed out of house to the Raffles hospital clinic which was a few bus stops away.

Along the way, i was panicking and lots of possibilities were running through my head. "What if it's cornea infection?" Then i can really say bye bye to sia. "What if i have to join another batch?" Or worse still, have to leave and look for a ground job before i even get the chance to fly... *sobz* "Will i be able to do Lasik still?" "Shucks, i can't go to Auckland liao!" LOL =P I know it can happen to anyone, but still i can't believe this is gonna happen to me........... =(

But, thank god, it's only conjunctiva (a new term i learn about the eye) infection. The doc prescribed me 2 eye drops and gave me a medical permission not to don contact lens for a week. Hopefully, it won't affect me in SEP classes. *cross fingers*

Been instructed to avoid going out by the doctor. Thus, i had to cancel all my plans for the weekend... *Signs* Cancelled the afternoon shopping date with some of my batch girls, end up i shopped around alone @ Bugis for groceries after leaving the clinic. However, i am not gonna give a miss for KUISHINBO today hehehe... 1 of Pi's friends birthday and i am tagging along for the food =P I luuuuuuuuurve Japanese food!

After this incident, Lasik is first on my list. I can't imagine the dryness on board. Haiz...


FIrst day of SEP. Everyone's feeling lighthearted cos we're really at ease heehee...


The next day when we have our first aid course. Andrew's picked to be the model. Poor thing, he got so "wrapped up". Mrs Wong demostrating a Tourniquet, a drastic measure to stop/restrict blood flow to area with a severe open wound.


Then it's our turn to practice bandaging. My patient and me =)


And we swapped over...


The mannequins for our CPR practice and test. Fun but tiring. I wonder, when it comes to a real person you got to rescue, would i dare to pump as hard? For fear of breaking the person's ribs... Not easy... *shake head*

Day 37

Shag* Grant myself the "right" to use this word cos i really am!

Already burnt out even b4 the week draws to a close. Arrived @ STC record-early at 8am to practise CPR b4 the test commence. Despite that, the test turns out to be more tedious then we thought it would be, because the instructors were very demanding and rather hostile too. My knees almost gave way >.<" Pumped away my energy early in the morning.... Physically drained....

Another first today: watched child birth video. Though it was gross, it gives me a better idea what is it all about (but am rather shaken). Knowledge is power. Cheers! To all mothers =)

*Feeling much better after an impromptu chilling out/off-loading session with Jerrica. Heh~ Our frequency still there, amazingly.

Day 36 - First Aid Course

First, the introduction trainer has to scare us with the statistic for Hijacks and the threats of terrorism yesterady. Today, comes the military-style female trainer for First Aid course. Having Cardiopulmonary Resuscitation - CPR test tmr. >.<" *Stressed* It's not easy for a first timer afterall.

Yeah!! Finally settled on a pair of Adidas sneakers with the help of 2 fashion goddess cum Adidas fans, to go the miles =P Queensway is still the place to go for sport shoes!

Off to practise! on Qing =9

Day 34 - Exiting fleet training

The day we all have been waiting for: Our SNY roster is out !!!!!!!!!!!!

Yeah! It's Auckland and Hong Kong for me sometime in late May.

Dunno to be happy or to be sad:

1) Was hoping i'll land Sydney &/or Narita cos of their high allowances.
2) Been longing to go Japan. For the food especially *salivating*
3) Found out that i get both a day each in AKL and HKG, unlike the schedule for SYD and NRT. They are really tight and SYD flights are known to be "notorious" for work-non-stop.
4) Auckland's 12 hours + flight. Siong !!! What a way to start our career, my first official flight.
5) The timing so "heng" lor, clashes with major school holidays, which means i'll get a board full of kids (potential hazards =p)
6) New Zealand yes ! A good getaway too! Let me be swept off to the land of the Middle Earth.
7) It's due winter time in the Southern Hemisphere. *Cham* must get winter wear >.<"


Finally, getting our SNY roster is the only comforting thing for the past 9 boooooring days. He is nice @ heart but just not competent to be a CTS we feel.
If you complain about the quality of the trainees you send on board, perhaps you want to look at the trainer. When he portray this "i can't be bothered too", or "i am not sure", what you do think you will get? Haiz... To think he was an ex-LS long long time ago.... If he's going to be an IFS ?!?!?! I'll =X

Exiting fleet training and moving into SEP tomorrow. No more wayang make-up, buns, painted nails and heels !!! Hehehehe... But honestly, i have come to like drawing that face every morning although it makes me look horrible. =/

Still thinking about those Adidas shoes. Not sure if i should invest cos it's rather extravagant to spend 100 bucks++ on a pair of lifestyle shoes, for SEP training esp. But then again in future, if i want to travel the miles, i wanna travel in style ;)

Off to calculate my allowances =9

Velvet Night

It was my first time to Velvet last night. To my disappointment, Phuture, Zouk & Velvet are playing house music. Although i'm fine with House, i still prefer R&B. On top of that, the crowd didn't come in til 12 - 1am. Sian..... All disappeared to MOS. Someone suggested that we propose an alliance between SQ and MOS. Hehe~

The turn out from the class was pretty good, about 12 of us went. 862 and 865 was there too but in smaller numbers. 864 was rumored to be there but didn't catch them. Anyway, we sort of call it a STC night =P

Tiff - dressed in hip hop style, was telling us mischievously that, to her dismay, she always got pick up by young boys. Well i was already betting to myself how many she'll "kill" tonight Haha... True enough, later in the night 2 or 3 NS man-looking guys was trying to approach Tiff. *tsk tsk*

Woke up @ 3pm today. Got a shock, cos i have never slept so late b4. There goes my weekend...


So many things to do, yet so little time.

Day 32 - Aircraft Visit

Okay, I'm ditching LV for Prada =P

Ayeee... It's not like i own many of them, none in fact. However, it's something i look forward to have @ least 1 of them in your closet. It is also about the kick of being able to walk into 1 boutique, pick and choose then swip your card for one "bao bao". Hehe... LV's overstated. Discovered by chance this new Jacquard Hobo range today, it was Love @ first sight!
Just 1 ok? =P Swear i will stick to my financial/saving targets Heh~
Ok this is airhead... NEXT!!

Had our aircraft visit today, as predicted, we were quite in the way of all the crew on board preparing for departure. It was a mad rush on both Megatops we visited. Many of us were shocked to observe the senior girls' "Chor Lor-ness" @ work. According to IFS Jeannie, we have to "Look like a Woman, Think like a Man, but Work like a Horse". Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
*Stressed about our SNYs and first Solos*

Finally found the time for the 4 of us to bond. Headed to town with Sal, Wen and Mel, settled @ TCC and bitched til 9++. The session was great. Made much discoveries, vent our pent up frustrations and help each other improve =)

If not for fate, i would probably have procrastinated to meet up with Yijie & Grace (n Ling Sheng). But there they were, walking right into me when i left Isetan Shaw House. Went home together and updated them about me and life as trainee so far. Will certainly still meet them again =)

I have received multiple comments that i look older than i am, in other words = "Chao Lau", or that i dressed older than i look. That i do not deny. First of all, i dun think i am a childish/kidish person so naturally i avoid the "cute cute" dressing. Secondly, i am not sure why, but i feel that in order to create a good impression for people, i wanna look poise/old/mature (whatever you call it) to conceal my low confidence....

What should i do? Perhaps you want to enlighten me ?

Day 31

"Introverts focus their attention and energy on the world inside of themselves. They enjoy spending time alone and need this time to 'recharge their batteries.' Introvert try to understand the world b4 they experience it, which means a lot of their activity is mental. "

That is so me.

Many people think that Extraverts = talkative, and Introverts = shy. But NOOOO!!! Which is why sometimes i do feel misunderstood.

The courses that the training puts us through were indeed beneficial and pro-growth. Although it wasn't in depth, the exposure did help us to understand ourselves a little more and even stimulate our interest. Will certainly require lots of help to stay away from depression in this job man....

Was surprised that Joker David also has a serious side to him. He brought the book "Just Who Do You Think You Are?" today and got the entire class interested in finding out more about their personality type, the suitable career paths, strengths and possible pitfalls.

Here's the 4 Different Dimensions in Personality Types:-

(1) The 2 different ways we interact with the world:

Extraverts (E)

• Are energized by being with other people
• Like being the centre of attention
• Act, then think
• Tend to think out loud
• Are easy to "read" and know; share personal information freely
• Talk more than listen
• Communicate with enthusiasm
• Respond quickly; enjoy a fast space
• Prefer breadth to depth

Introverts (I)

• Are energized by spending time alone
• Avoid being centre of attention
• Think, then act
• Think things through inside their heads
• Are more private; prefer to share personal information with a selected few
• Listen more than talk
• Keep their enthusiasm to themselves
• Respond after taking time to think things through; enjoys a slower pace
• Prefer depth to breadth

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(2) The 2 different ways we receive information:

Sensors (S)

• Trust what is certain and concrete
• Like new ideas only if they have practical applications
• Value realism and common sense
• Like to use and Hone established skills
• Tend to be specific and literal; give detailed descriptions
• Present information in a step-by-step manner
• Oriented to the present

Intuitives (N)

• Trust inspiration & inference
• Like new ideas & concepts for their own sake
• Value imagination & innovation
• Like to learn new skills; get bored easily after mastering skills
• Tend to be general & figurative; use metaphors & analogies
• Present information through leaps, in a roundabout manner
• Oriented towards the future

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(3) The 2 different ways of making decisions:

Thinker (T)

• Step back; apply impersonal analysis to problems
• Value logic, justice and fairness; 1 standard for all
• Naturally see flaws & tend to be critical
• May be seen as heartless, insensitive and uncaring
• Consider it more important to be truthful than tactful
• Believe feelings are valid only if they are logical
• Are motivated by a desire for achievement andaccomplishment

Feeler (F)

• Step forward; consider effect of actions on others
• Value empathy and harmony; see he exception to the rule
• Naturally like to please others; show appreciation easily
• May be seen as overemotional, illogical and weak
• Consider it important to be tactful as well as truthful
• Believe any feelings is valid, whether make sense or not
• Motivated by a desire to be appreciated

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(4) The last dimension concerns whether we prefer to live in a more structured way or in a more spontaneous way.

Judger (J)

• Are the happiest after decision have been made
• Have a "work ethic": work first, play later(if there's time)
• Set goals & work towards achieving them on time
• Prefer knowing what they are getting into
• Are product oriented (emphasis is on completing the task)
• Derive satisfaction from finishing projects
• See time as finite resources & take deadlines seriously

Perceivers (P)

• Are happiest leaving their options open
• Have a "play ethic": enjoy now finish the job later
• Change goals as new information becomes available
• Like adapting to new situations
• Are process oriented (emphasis is on how the task is completed)
• Derive satisfaction from starting projects
• See time as a renewable resource & deadline as elastic

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I'm ISFP. So what are you?

Yet to know my results. Will only be able check again on Monday cos tomorrow's aircraft visit. Sianz... Next tuesday's fleet exams AGAIN, and many more to come when during SEP. Quoting Kelvin: "Who says got life in STC one?" *sobz* >.<"

Thanks to the daily travelling time together, been connecting with Wendy on an unexpected intellectual level. Glad to find a kaki who shares the same frequency as me =)

Day 29 - 1st Day @ Fleet Training

Yawnz....
Are all CTS so boring? Not only that, he's super strict. Fancy getting highly paid to "catch" pple's make-up, hair, conduct and still get to travel around =P. Starting to miss Ms Woo already.

Had a long Marche dinner today. Sorting out issues and learning more about ourselves even after 2 years and 4 months ++. Like he said, my true self is only starting to emerge.
So "Ling Ling", my boss, has been lying dormant for the past 22 years and now she decided to take charge =/

Bro's okie. Haven seen him since his operation. He had to stay 1 night for observations.

KK, eye lids are dropping liao. Zzzzzz time.

So this is how it feels to stroll along alone in the heart of a bustling city, drinking in the night air and neon lights, and missing somebody =)

Haven done this for quite awhile ...

Weirdo i maybe, but i enjoy walking and walking alone, engrossing in my thoughts... Especially from Orchard all the way home, only when the time and conditions are right Haha~ So far i have not found anyone else like-minded besides Yiwen who enjoys this "sport" too.

Feeling alone in crowded places,
Contented & @ peace while alone. .

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Minds Cafe @ Princep Street.

Day 28 - Last day of Foundation Course

Yipeee!!!
Exams' over. It wasn't really as hard, but you must know your products. Think some parts i fumbled, others i score a little. Main problem will be my choice of words when i'm flustered Haha... "How come?" LOL *faintz* Please forgive me...

Class heading to "Minds" Cafe later. Will be joining them shortly though i'm kinda tired (woke up @ 3am!!) Should i go? Or should i not? Hmmmm.... I'm really contradicting @ times. Few days earlier i was wondering about the whole point of it, and yet i'm participating proactively. Partly cos i don't think the chance of getting a group of people to come together and share-learn-play will be high. Might as well enjoy while i can, cos i heard so much about the Hi(s) - Bye(s) ....

Gotta run, to make memories =)

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Someone's credibility took a plunge,
while another proves to be a gem indeed.

Don't judge a book by its cover.
Take time to get to know the content.

1 more day to last Exams

Kaoz... my com is dying... Dunno rebooted how many times as i write this...

3 Days of off and i am only starting to mug for tmr's exam half day through Sunday... *Stressed*
Spent Friday with Pi watching The Art of Seduction. Nice show with the "oh-so-common" korean romantic comedy vibes. BTW i watched it on Youtube hehe... Someone posted it there.

Went for my Eyebrow trimming cum shopping therapy on Saturady afternoon. Should have know better... Cos a bomb dropped into my pocket >.<" Bought about $80 worth of I Novi makeup from Jeannie, the I Novi lady whom i like going to for trimming. She was kind enough to elaborate and demostrate to me how to create different looks =) How not to buy after she has done up your face nicely for you FOC? No no, she did not hard push... It's a favour thing... Hiak....

Also bought a polo tee and a beige pants for SEP training. Kaoz... I shouldn't be buying so much clothes just for SEP la *slap myself* I wanna shop out station instead... Hmph, i shall not care if i wear the same thing to class every week le!!

Simon(e) jio the class very last minute on Sat morning to Villa Bali in the evening. Pretty nice place to chill out, i like their theme. But it's freaking secluded, near the old SAJC (where's the new one anyway?) along Alexandra Road.

When browsing through the menu, i was telling the rest, for once i actually know what i was reading Haha~ Aperitifs, Rum, Bloody Mary, Cointreau etc... I tried not to drink and i did! Only ordered a mocktail called Sea Breeze, a mixture of mango, pineapple, orange and some other juices.

The peeps who went, minus Tiff who was really late...


Dear Wen... Girl, mei mei la... your skin looks just fine to me. No worries de =)


My senior, Cheryl and Moi. TJC 20/99 and 24/00


Okie, gonna reveal smt embarassing about me... Promise you won't laugh ? See that wet patch on my tee? Perhaps i didn't expect Singapore's toilet to have the water sprout thingy to clean your privates. So there i was standing in front trying figure out how to flush the toilet bowl (cos the stooopid flush couldnt work), and there's this button @ the side... No harm exploring right? Bleah, the next thing i know i ganna the water liao... *faintz* Shhhh........


And before we left .............





The rest, went to Zouk for a second round. Sally, Mel and Moi left though...

A peek into my thoughts: sometimes i wonder is this all worth the effort? At times i feel that things are just kinda surface. Fun, but lack content.... Shouldn't i be making an effort to meet friends whom i have known since school days more often? They have been part of my life and i should continue to bank on them but is it too late?
I'll remember what Pi said... "SIA's only for a couple years of your life, but i'm for life".......

Yeah! Received photos from Ezer @ last. His com has been down for sometime... His collection captured most of the food module moments weeks ago.

While waiting for our food to get ready, we were to familiarise with the tray setting.


Whoosh~ The food vanished into our stomach. We're sooo hungry Haha =P



We had Cheese tasting in class later that day. I'm a cheese lover too, but not the hard core type. Blue cheese is YUCKY!!!
When the IFS left us to finish the rest of the cheese, being the naughty pple, we wont just guai guai finish it. So we played the Wu Zhong Xian's game - Zhong Ji Mi Ma!!!!!
Whoever who got the number, will get a mouthful of Blue Cheese coated on a small bread.


Blue Cheese ---> the one that looks mouldy, on the right most.


See the "power" of Blue Cheese le ma? Now we know how the Ang Mohs feel about our durians.

Good Friday

Sianz, it pouring cats and dogs outside.... Almost got drenched b4 i could reach Pi's place. Though i prefer cool to swealtering heat, the rain makes everything inconvenient.

It's seems to be a star studded week. First it was Shi Xin Hui on Tuesday. Yesterday we saw the Star Idol winner Bryan @ STC. Overheard that he won't be able to fly anymore though he wishes to...

Wen went GaGa over him like a little girl Haha... Agree with Wen that he's pretty build, got 6 packs lei (according to Wen, she thinks he's Huge.... Eh... what a word =P), but he really suck at dancing!! Did your see him that night? =P

I think he's nice though, doesn't walked with a "I'm famous now" air, holds the door for people, smile and greet like everyone else does @ STC. That is the difference after one has been through the "production factory" =P

Heard from Wen whose sister used to be Bryan's Temasek poly schoolmate that he was already prominent back in those days. Just like the recent Miss Singapore first runner up, Jade Seah, whose name we all hear so much about back in our school days. Be it among the different JCs as well as through our common ECA - Netball, her name echos pretty often. Haha... So many of us rooted for her, but too bad it went to the boobs intstead =P

k, it's my only day i wanna slack b4 i gotta mug for exams again tmr. Gotta run to watch my Band of brothers again and The art of Seduction!

Day 26

My life took a turn ever since 8th of March 2006.

It turned into a truman show.

A movement of an inch of muscle can imply a million things.
We are under so much scrutiny that peer support's very much appreciated. Wen even suggested we conduct our own evaluation to help each other out, in order to survive here. Hiak...

Self-consciousness pushing for the peak....

Day 25 - Class "Outing"

Yeah, not so much of a "Outing" cause we were scheduled to do everything in 1 day anyway. For once, the girls are all ecstatic about not having to put on wayang makeup. And the guys have to say "Your looked more human today" ................... *Dots* & *Sobz*

Rushed down on cab with Wendy cos both us late (no nid to drama makeup, still overslept and late, Hehe). Reached US embassy to Q at about 8 ++ and guessed who we saw? SuperStar.....
contestant Shi Xin Hui la.. haha .. If only it's Kelly Poon Heh~ Xin Hui looks okie to me lei, but on screen she looks rounder....
The people working in the embassy were rather rude... Eeeks.

And while Q-ing, i made the first reunion with alumni of my alma mater(s) in SIA. CHeryl !!! In the same class somemore! Hehe... She's my senior my TJC and she also knew about Huiying and Hanwee. Haha the golden couple are no longer together anymore though. *Sayang*

Left on cab with Cheryl and Kelly, heading to Loyang to collect our accessories. And moments after we settled down in the cabby, the 3 of us just automatically whip out our mirror/ compact powder. >.<"" Serious occupational hazard, something we all feel so guilty about. If there's any change, i feel that i'm getting more n more insanely vain. "Hiao Dao Ji Dian" =P. Haiz. After collecting our accessories at the store, we drag our laden selves to T2 swedsens to have lunch cum April-babies celebration.

Moi & Sally, our baby cutie pie. Also my "Jie Mei" for the day cos we're the Purple ladies! *Muacks* So Ke Ai ^^




Mel, Tiff, Celine & Wen. Tiffany bears a stark resemblance to Xiao Yan Zi aka Zhao Wei =)

The "Destruction" Hehe...


Presenting the April Babies!!! David, Jonathon and Cherlyn. Poor David has exams on his Birthday.


And the Crazy peeps of 863. Yeah, we are kind of creating a din in Swedsens. Luckily they gave us a "partying room" that has glass doors to segregate us from the public.

LOL... Honestly, i think everywhere we go, we create a din anyway.

We spent a good 2 or 3 hours @ Swedsens eating, playing games (Murderer, Doctor and Inspector game?) and having cakes before we head off to take Airport pass photo.


To think that we'll have a short and enjoyable day, we're so wrong. "Shouldering" along the accessories in the huge black cabin bag and ending about the same time as normal working day is equally taxing. Speaking of cabin bag, we all thought that there's gonna be a complementary small size luggage. End up, it's only the mamasan bag above. Sianz.... Got to fork out of my own pocket...

Finally, on the way home on MRT, we were behaving like tourists, snapping away. First time in Singapore Eh? =P Aiya, my bumber bee shades...

Eh... He's not a bus uncle, neither a tourist from China =P But Kel's shirt looks so much like the uniform shirt from my Secondary School, Manjusri Sec! Back then the boys are always being teased about bus drivers lookalike, b4 SBS decided to changed it to green. Heh~

Class's been awesome =)

*1 more day to exams*

Sunday Blues

It has been happening for the past few Saturdays and Sundays, weekend basically.

This morning i bolt out of bed when the sky's still midnight blue, searching fanatically for my HP, my only alarm clock, hoping to see that i am not late, yet again.

Yes, i am that stress.

In the beginning it was much worse, literally everyday i jump out of bed before the clock even has a chance to ring. Fear, became my alarm clock instead. But nowadays, it only happens on weekends. I'll jolt up and think "Shyt, did i forget to set the alarm??" before it takes a moment to dawn on me that it's SUNDAY!!! Duh.....

The emphasis placed on Punctuality in the training school is stupendous. Not just here, i believe in future when reporting for flights too. Speaking about reporting for flights, i hope i wouldn't be jumping out of bed in cold sweat everytime, thinking "Did i miss my flight? Have i missed my flight?"

Hiak... Right, back to "kiss" the notes.

Bewildered

Recently, i don't normally blog on Saturdays as exams' coming Thurs. MSN auto logged on and my ex-colleague asked me how am i doing. Told him about the exams, and there he has to "suan" me about SIA testing us on the different ways to smile???!?!?!?!!

Yeah, he meant it to be a joke, and neither do i think he was intentionally being crude, but this isn't the first time they kinda "insult" cabin crew. I guess he/they didn't realise that their comments carried connotations of sacarsm and disdain. *Tsk* Give me some respect pls....
Situation Awareness, something we all ought to have.

But had i not log on, i would have missed the chance talking to and updating the Babe. Nope, it should be Babes =p

Dear girl, i am absolutely bewildered that you're going to be a mummy soon =) Had to managed my shock, confusion, happiness and excitement all @ the same time when talking to you. Looking through your thoughts, i am amazed and glad that you've grown so so so much. Really admired your courage. *Hugzzzz* Staying so calm, your decision, knowing what you want in future, working overseas and jaga being a happy mum simultaneously.

Please, please take care of your health okie? Especially when you've got noone to look after you during this period. Don't overwork yourself !!!
Drink lots of water (i know your doc already told u many times), eat more healthy food, more fruits please and what else? Do they sell Yan Wor there??? Hehe ... i think you should be more knowledgeable than me in this area now =P

Come to think of it, i feel so small, so protected, so naive and childish all of a sudden. (Don't worry i'm fine, just reflecting)

Not long ago, we (amongst current classmates) were all talking about relationships and marriages. Was a little confused and certainly felt that i'm not ready for marriage yet. But i do love Pi. Simply not ready. Partly cos i just stepped into adulthood, like being 100% responsible for myself? And i'm still trying to find my footing. Now comes motherhood. *Faintz* Honestly, i would have been super lost. I can't really take care of myself still, how am i going to accept another young being whom i must be fully responsible for? As i read, i wonder how it feels to anticipate him/her coming, how he/she kicks, his/her little limbs, reading to him/her....

Whether you are ready anot, i agree it's all a state of mind or a choice. Pi did asked me before, "If you are not ready, then when will you be?" When i tried to answer that, i realised i cant put a definite time to it. "Say 28?" It feels weird....
When it comes, it comes. Receive with an Open Heart. When you Learn to accept it and make the best out of it, that is when you are ready. Am i right?

For now, i shall still remain as that little girl of Pi's and Mum's. Yes, in Denial i am. Let me be.
*Seeking*Learning*Living*

Day 23

Yeah! Weekend's here @ last!

But what's more important, we got our last month's pay today!!!! As if it was the "hungry ghost festival", i couldn't wait to get out of the house to do some shopping, even if it's small item purchase. The urge to release that shopping demon was freaking strong, such that i changed and propelled to Bugis after bathing and dinner, which was sooo unlike me. Pi knows me well enough that i'm quite a cleanliness freak and NEVER like to step out of the house after i've bathed. Not even if it's just to go downstairs to buy dinner. I'll rather have instant noodles. =P

Charged to Bugis' Adidas, only to find the bag i've been day dreaming about the past few days was sold out. Luckily Suntec's outlet still has it, and the assistant helped me "chop" my name on it. But now i'm having 2nd thoughts... Hmmm... Been worried about fleet training dress code already. Although it's very causal, how many collar shirts can u have? So many "No this, No that" DUH...... I was joking with Wendy about going to Giodano to buy a dozen different colours collar shirts and recycle for the rest of fleet training. Heh~
Sometimes i do wish i'm a guy instead, minus the breadwinner responsibility =p

The last 2 days lunch was on SIA as we have our food module. It's was fun, with all the "Gien-ing" to start eating and all the trying-mouthfuls here and there. Erm, apetizing? Some perhaps. Am starting to worry about my BMI if all the food onboard and in other stations are always nice.

Even though the exam is approaching, we never forget to have some fun.
Presenting our very own version of "Kumar"s! How adorable... =)

Day 22

It's 6.45am now. I'm swallowing down my bread as fast as i can now b4 i need to slap on my make-up.

It's been harping me since i woke up 1 hour ago, thus i feel the need to pen it.
I have no idea why i have been thinking about what "RA" Kelvin said weeks ago when Mr Green asked us to introduce ourselves. "What is your greatest achievement in your life so far?"
Kelvin's one i couldn't forget as it struck me alot and we got to learn that he is not just full of crappy jokes (esp X rated ones), but a sentimental person a well. He divulged that his greatest achievement was to have resigned his job and spent about 6 months with his Dad, and that was his Dad's last 6 months too. *Touched* How many of us would have done that?

Perhaps it was what Pi and i discussed last night, the health of Yen's parents that i am concerned and my brother's pending (thank god it's a minor 1) operation on the 18th that really got into me ....

"With great power comes great responsibility".

For me, i think it will be more relevant to say " With age, comes greater responsibility"

Right, Gotta run. It's Food class today. Hopefully it's gonna be entertaining =) Tschus!!!

Day 19

Sorry Sorry.... (occupational hazard, always apologising =P) No time to blog cos exams approaching, and all of us are starting to feel the stress. It's 80% for passing mark lor... who wouldn't be stress? Spent the weekend mugging and trying to avoid logging on.

It's Monday blues today... *sign* Nothing interesting like last Monday's alcohol class to cheer the day up. I see why this is a bitchy industry, as we had alot of fun bitching about our "juniors" today. Like who's Shuai, whose french twist's upside down, whose bun looks like a durian... Oppsie =P Bo Bian, cos when we are bored, we become sadist. =P Nah... just for today la =>

Missed a KTV with majority of the class last friday evening, wanted to head down after my leg therapy session @ Pi's place in fact, until i received my brother's sms "Jie i going SGH's A&E now"
That almost freak me out. Hope things aren't too serious. *Fingers crossed*
And as i speak, just received a bad news from dear yen yen on MSN regarding her parents' deteriorating health. Am worried for her... Girl, *hugsss*

Found out by accident that Lindy is working in the States now. Yen's in Shanghai. Yun dunno if she is gonna stay in Singapore for long. As for Grace, not sure if she'll be come cosmopolitan too. Hmmmm.... I feel more and more alone suddenly...

Had our last communication lesson last friday with "beloved" Mr Green. I realised that we all enjoy his class lots lots. Perhaps of his Ang Moh fun, the role plays etc...



Me and Miss Sha Da Jie role-play in action. As usual, she always make it so funny, by just being herself =)




On Thursday, we all learn to take care of babies, prematurely. But of cause there're a couple of guys in our class who are soon-to-be-husband or maybe even dad! Good training, free somemore. Heh~ =)

Oooo! Camera-shy Melissa posing in a Bib ! Hahaha...