Day 7

Very tired, not enough sleep everyday. Was telling/complaining to everyone like how are we girls going to study when we are supposed to behave like "bimbos", getting up in the wee hrs and taking 1 hr to makeup to get to school, worry about falling strands of hair, always having to touch up makeup and stressed about the grooming every single day???? Duh... Sorry if i complain too much, haha i am starting to sound like someone already =P Gonna make it a quick entry.

Had an interesting class with a CS today. His experiences are really valuable references, but some of the facts did freak me out a little. Again, it makes me wonder if i this is really what i want and will i be able to survive the 2 yrs. Guess my greatest fear will be whether i can adapt to the completely different culture and lifestyle... >.<"

Was surprised that Sally and Wendy felt the same way as me, cos to be diplomatically correct i didnt think they'll voice it out too. Everything seems completely different from what we perceived as b4 we joined as FSS. Like how Wendy's FA friend put it b4 Wendy is part of the FA family,"You won't understand until you are in it". Although we are only 7 days old, all of us can't help but to agree with that now. Yes i know that i should be thankful to be that privileged group of people to have gotten in. But there are certainly other aspects that we have to come to terms with. No pain, no gain. 1 of them will be the expectation to live up to this perfect embodiment of grace, wellfullness and beauty the company build out of the SGirl. This is our responsibility and the type of invisible pressure you will ALWAYS shoulder. *stressed* Honestly, money seems to be all our sole motivation to persevere in this job now.

Quoting someone else: "There is nothing glamorous about this job" Let's all be realistic, and it sure is. But, i will still try to find this thing call "Passion". Only with passion, will it make the journey ever so meaningful. Do it not just for the pax, but also more for myself =)

Bed time.